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Fallen Leaves by Freudian-field-day Fallen Leaves :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 3 0 Beautiful Boy by Freudian-field-day Beautiful Boy :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 44 9 Unknown Destination by Freudian-field-day Unknown Destination :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 15 0 Smoke Gets in Your Eyes by Freudian-field-day Smoke Gets in Your Eyes :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 4 4 Closed for Business by Freudian-field-day Closed for Business :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 9 5 Charcoal by Freudian-field-day Charcoal :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 37 8 Stars on the Shore by Freudian-field-day Stars on the Shore :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 18 5 Little Wanderer by Freudian-field-day Little Wanderer :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 24 5 Locura Falls Promo 2 (ALT) by Freudian-field-day Locura Falls Promo 2 (ALT) :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 3 2 Locura Falls Promo 1 by Freudian-field-day Locura Falls Promo 1 :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 0 0 Queen of Laps by Freudian-field-day Queen of Laps :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 46 5 Friendship by Freudian-field-day Friendship :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 13 0 Sleeping Marsh by Freudian-field-day Sleeping Marsh :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 21 11 Gateway by Freudian-field-day Gateway :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 34 2 Serenity by Freudian-field-day Serenity :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 21 0 Mist by Freudian-field-day Mist :iconfreudian-field-day:Freudian-field-day 227 22


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This is beautiful. I love the emotion behind it, and the positioning in contrast to the negative space is just lovely and dramatic. The...



I took a photography class that absolutely KILLED my interest in photography. Right before finals week, my camera--which I also use for my film projects in school--died. It was just a pretty crappy, frustrating time for me. I get my repaired camera back in September, and I hope by then I've managed to shake this disheartened feeling I have.

The professor would grade without explaining what could be improved, and after a few A's on projects, I started to get low B's with no comments as to how I could improve. That wouldn't have been so bad if it weren't also just a chaotic, incredibly stressful class. There's a lot more to it, but I just really wish I'd been groomed on my technique. That was what I was IN the class for, and I ended up just fumbling in the dark and trying to figure out why I wasn't good enough. I never once got any feedback on how my photos could get back up to A standards in her eyes. However, she did praise me on the last day in front of the class for sticking with it after my camera had broken during my final project, etc. I know she's not a mean person, she just isn't quite the teacher for me.

But now I just feel sort of defeated. Before the class, I'd been desperate to figure out what could be improved in my photos, how to get the kind of amazing shots I see from people who have been doing it for years. In the end, I didn't learn a thing about how I could improve personally, and I ended up with the sense that I'm just not cut out for photography, that some people have an eye for it, and some people don't.

I hope one day I get back my passion for photography. It used to make me so happy. I'm not entirely sure when that started to change, but I know that this class was a mistake. Plus, it was my first B at this school, and that sucks. Guess it could have been worse, though. I just wish I hadn't left this class, a class that was meant to teach me and help me get better at photography, feeling so insecure and lacking in confidence. Oh well.
...for all of the supportive comments and the many faves of my work! Welcome, to my new watchers, and thanks again to everyone who's been so nice during my time on DeviantArt. I apologize to those of you who got comment replies from me for comments you left as far back as April. >.> Apparently I wasn't seeing most of the comments that were left. Sorry! As for the likes, I don't leave thanks for those, mostly because I don't want to spam up your own pages, but thank you so much for liking my art! I really do appreciate it, so I hope no one is offended when I don't comment. If you leave me a comment saying you like "thank you" comments, though, I'd be happy to oblige! XD

I'm planning on doing another shoot as soon as I can, and this time I'm going to try to add some more color to my gallery. I realize a lot of my photos are on the darker side, so I'm gonna try to mix it up. Hopefully they'll be well received, either way. ^^

Thank you again to everyone!


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Though I'm still learning and striving to improve every day, I really love photography and want to go as far as I can with it. I see so many amazing images on DeviantArt, and I hope that one day mine can be among them.

I appreciate anyone stopping by my page! If you're here because I added your work to my favorites, there's no need to thank me. I would much rather you check out my gallery and see if there's anything you like as well!


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MarkellBarnes360 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Happy B-Day!
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